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Madama Butterfly - Un Bel Di - by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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Madama Butterfly - Un Bel Di -

You descended upon the silence with aura so great. You nodded to me with assurance and I let me believe. I'll follow you forever as long as I stay. I'll work in return for you to return to me. I know all of your kind return someday. I'm definately sure it is like you I want to be. To meet you again one beautiful sunny day To feel myself in awe of your elegant beauty I want to meet your highness once again, Madama Butterfly.

Summer Frost by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

Onigokko -diabolical tag- by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

Things Fall Apart by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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Things Fall Apart

I hate the yellow it wakes me from my soothing countless nightmares that I call home I hate the black it's all around me. I can't breathe. grasping me tightly. I hate the red he doesn't love you. silly girl, noone does I hate the gray can't see farther, run faster but I won't make it. it's too late. I hate the white someday it won't be as bright anymore, as pure. I hate the blue I'm numb. I don't feel it. hit me harder I don't belong...I'm slipping away

A Corner in the Sky by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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A Corner in the Sky

In the early morn there's a corner in the sky, an orange corner in the sky to light my day I wish someone would be there with me, to feel the energy growing. To start over and wash red hands for our sins to be forgiven. No matter how deep the cut, no matter how long the scream, there's a place where I need to be. Somewhere I belong, it will show me the way. A merry-go-round that will let me stay. So I'll hold my hand and look me in the eyes Because in the early morn there's a corner in the sky, an orange corner in the sky to light my day

Right Beneath My Skin by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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Right Beneath My Skin

you don't mean it, the fake wall completes it stirring, stirring, stirring fighting the lukewarm coffee your tongue reaching the bottom of my heart gouging out secrets, one by three, three by six I long for choking, unimaginable betraying my trust, it'll never be free to fix touch me slowly, I'm wanting it to last tell me lies, I'll never be phased In September, I'll know it was too fast hold back the storm, feed me more when the credits play, it'll be just something under gossamers but for now, it'll be right beneath my skin

cult, critical by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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cult, critical

*black is the color of sympathy let's all hold hands so noone can leave daughters are bleeding children keep singing we stitch up our eyes so noone else can see temptation--truth--identity noone will be used prejudice--sex--laughter letting go will make you the next noone leaves our secret circle if we all help everyone's equal the velvet skies will be our conductor while we chant the hymns of... *repeat noone wants to let go absolute trust is here we know but why aren't some of us here? i can feel their silly tears black is the color of sympathy let's all hold hands so noone can leave we all are sure, the

I want to cry by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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I want to cry

I want to cry, Hiding behind cascading bangs like hands of comfort being my only lover. I want to be silenced, By a lonesome stranger to catch my fall. Whispering wine in my patient ears. Make me careless. Young girl hoping to sew me up or is she hoping to drown me in my patience? It's so easy. Easy to pour into my thirsty glass. Taking advantage of my fragile mind. The thought of pleasing, haunting. The body is only a part of the mind. The thought of assuming, tempting. I want it to hurt. I want to feel pleasure in my pain but I want to stay the way I want to be. I don't want to be a four-leaf clover that's been picked, oh so ge

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I want to cry by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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I want to cry

cult, critical by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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cult, critical

Right Beneath My Skin by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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Right Beneath My Skin

A Corner in the Sky by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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A Corner in the Sky

Things Fall Apart by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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Things Fall Apart

Onigokko -diabolical tag- by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

Summer Frost by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

Madama Butterfly - Un Bel Di - by esteLLa-nvr-phased, literature

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Madama Butterfly - Un Bel Di -

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Favourite genre of music: ALL
Favourite cartoon character: Spongebob Squarepants, Pink Panther
Personal Quote: *mrr...*, *drammies*

Favourite Visual Artist

anna sui <3

Favourite Movies

The Aristocats, Roman Holiday(ms.Hepburn's soOo beautiful), The Sound of Music...and etc.

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

too many!(Nelly Furtado, System Of A Down, Katy Rose, Beyonce, C. Aguilera,Charlotte Church...etc.)

Favourite Writers

vanessa carlton, katy rose, conan doyle

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my cell w/3.2 Mega pixel camera, my brain(?)

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singing,drama,music, things naturally beautiful, runway models

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esteLLa-nvr-phased

Feb 19, 2005

sighs and tears

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i miss far east drama in oki... its like i can die any sec here. like the highlight, the climax of my life is over. and i can die peacefully. everything seems so dull here. i feel extremely fake, like im holding myself back here. *sigh* we sure showed what was up in Oki, YOU KNOW. lol ~see scraps in my gallery for far east pics

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esteLLa-nvr-phased

Jan 16, 2005

uh...

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mrr....i need to get my mind working on this Reader's Theatre! its kind of hard when it has to be non-confusing, clear, understandable for the audience when I have to write it, lol. I can do this!!!

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esteLLa-nvr-phased

Jan 8, 2005

~I am 15, going on 16~

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wOw...weirdness. I'm turning 16, the day after tomorrow! i thought I just turned ten...haha. There probably are two kinds of people that would be surprised to here that. 1. The people that know me for so long and say "wow, we've    known eachother for a loOong time. and... 2. The people that thought I was turning 22 on my next b-day. lol. I'm one of those people that's like age-flexible. Put my hair up in pigtails and I turn out a big 9 year-old. Wear my hair down, wear eyeliner, wear something with heels, and I turn out 24. haha, it's so weird! I was looking at lyrics from "The Sound of Music", and found that song "Sixteen going on S